It's all in my head

Lately I have felt strange in my skin. Like I am too different twins with two different personalities: one is thoughtful, ambitious, guided by faith, self-confident about her worth, hard-working and one is a screaming sort of borderline, sometimes atheist mad person who's struggling against her mind.
And I wonder how much will I resist to this.
I want to grow beautifully and fulfill what I am meant to be.
I want to feel confortable with myself.
I want to feel at ease with my brain.
Questions flow through my mind like an ocean, I am delighted by my good face and frightened by bad one.
I need to feel good.
I need to let my obsessive thoughts fade away as easily as they come, remembering it's just my mind playing with my biggest fears.
I need to understand that thoughts are intrusive and caused by fears.
Empowerment is the key, I know I am stronger than my fears.