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I am trying to feel like I am an abstract entity.
So that I can't feel those who hurt me.
I want to stop breathing,
just for a while.
I want to forget that I am alive,
just for a moment.
I want just an emotionless second,
where my mind's sufferings
don't feel me with pain.
It's not right that some people are born with angst in their veins.
With pain in their heart.
It's not fucking right
to be born sensitive
and harmless.
I feel deadly,
yet I am harmless.
I say words I don't mean,
I think things I don't think,
I feel the madness overcoming me slowly
And I can't do anything.

...

What have I done?
Where am I going?
Where am I leading?
If you care,
follow me.
If you're brave enough,
run with me.

Love, Ti Amo

I love.

Like I never loved before.

It's all fresh and new.

And even though he's my hero,

I still fear for him so much,

I want to protect him.

I want to save him from whatever comes his way.

Why does such a beautiful soul have to bear all this?

Why can't things be easy for us for once?

I have this costant fear for us.

I pray, Lord knows how much I pray.

I feel lost in my emotions and fears.

I feel brave yet I feel scared.

I want to save us.

I want to save me.

I don't want to be the interrupted girl anymore.

I want to let my madness float away.

I want to start creating and building.

Lord, give me the strenght to bear this sensitiveness of mine.

Give the strenght to face the closed doors with a smile.

Give the strenght to be sure about myself.

Let the obsessive thought go away easily as they come.

Let depression stop choking my brain before it's too late.

I love so hard.

I want to love and to be loved by him forever.

Bless our path, ya Allah.