Burning...exploding.

I have been neglecting this diary for almost twenty days.
Life has been spinning around like crazy with all its ups and donws.

I had periods of intense, special joy.

But:

Contraddicting what I wrote in the last post, my work place is hell, again everybody against each talking behind their backs and backstabbing, jelousy and so on. Your average italian work place.

And, oh, I've been to the courthouse, trying to defeat that little man who tried to destroy me and who's still trying to take advantage of me. I won the law suit, anyway, it makes me angry that he's trying to be the victim. I'll never forget his emotional abuse...he'll never win.

And I am scared, because of someone I adore who's suffering from depression and extreme insecurity, throwing it all at me.

I don't know how strong I am anymore...I'm scared of being cursed.

I just feel tranquillity for once.

I just wanna be carefree for once.

I can't stand stress anymore...I'm juggling with all these issue while walking on a ball, and my body is feeling the consequences, I lost weight and today I have such a high temperature...it's like my stress exploded after burning inside of me.

I'm scared of curse.